Coming Out of Denial

May be I'll never fall in love again
May be the wound is never going to heal
And may be the scars will always remain
While this love will never get its due
I'll always want you
The way I've always wanted you

The fragrance of your body lingers around my head
Words play in a loop repeating what you last said
While my mind was unable to comprehend
My heart was unable to come to terms with what I read
Like the waves that never make it to the shore
I got consumed and couldn't be your friend any more

Was I blind to love you true?
How I dont mind remaining blind
You dont even have a clue
If there is only one last thing
That I can have from this life
I'd want one last hug from you
But a wish is just a wish
Mine rarely comes true

No drug got me high the way your kisses did
That intoxication completely blew off my lid
Its painful to be so far away and think about you
But its a sweet pain, atleast I get to think of you
I was longing for you to love me back
And for a moment I felt it too!
Perhaps time didnt hear me I wanned more
Cause it turned away leaving me on the cold floor

Sweet memories from you is what I'll cherish
Rest will be forgotten like gibberish
Your face is stuck to my conscious mind
Into the oblivion my soul wants to perish
I know love will find you soon again
But please dont forget me until then!
While my heart is broken into uncountable pieces
Sending you all my hugs and kisses

The Call of Silence

An unborn life

A mind in a coma

Like one-sided love

A body without a soul

And a heart with a hole

Life proceeds without a goal

But there is sound of silence to ignite us all

Start of an end

An endless story

The hangman sings

The deadman’s glory

As we rise we begin to fall

But still we walk bold and tall

When sound of silence inside us calls

I Talking

I didn't want to but I have found you
I’ve been with you I’ve been inside
I know you feel like all hopes have died
But after all these years I‘ve nothing to hide
I had to find you, nothing I’ve got to prove
From square one to sixty-four, this is how I move!

You’ve lost your strength, you’ve got your fears
Lost your sight somewhere far from near
With silvery eyes, shining like a dew
Reflecting the light, that comes right through
You stare at me but I haven’t got a face
As you fall from grace, get lost without a trace!

The Final Destiny

Like a journey that comes to a standstill

A point where mind matters more than heart

The horizon looks dusty, my vision impaired

By the wind blowing right on my face

I try to see through a narrow slit

That opens up in between my eyelids

The next step I take is going to make or break

The way that leads me to the end

Lose friends, path bends

No defense! A down trend?

This decadence of my life's essence

Causes my sentiments to resent,

Uncertainty surrounds me

But my mind and soul blends

To make a fence around me

Preparing me for my final destiny

Tears Of Ice

Tears of Ice

Run from my eyes

Down to my face

Where it Solidifies

Unchanged even

Under the Winter Sun

Shines like a jewel

A sign of sacrifice

Place it on my edifice

Once my soul dies

Fading Thought

I am drowning in my tragedies

Overdosed with pills that kill

As my vital signs decrease

My body lies still

I am flashing thru the memories

Losing my will to heal

These perpetual casualties

In my life's ordeals

Regret

I kept looking everywhere

When what I needed was right there

And it was waiting

Now I've come back only to find

Traces of what I've lost behind

And they too are fading

The flowers have decayed away

Once upon a time they were in bloom

The wind used to make them sway

Now they lay weathered,

Perhaps too soon!

Karma

Karma is your destiny,
With Infinite powers that you wont see
It energized, materialized, until you realized
All that you are and all that you'll be

The emotions that you release
Negative or positive
Like fairy tales and fantasies
Create probabilities

Betrayed by emotions uncontrolled
Love and Fear , they are called
Sometimes you stay and sometimes move on
Do what you may, a Karma is born

Feed your Karma, burn your soul
This cycle must go on and on
If you die, you are re-born
Your karma too will come along!

[that which is meant for everyone to go thru]

Shattered Souls

We are all lost souls searching for a way home
Wandering aimlessly, hoping the path that we walk on
Would finally make us whole
And heal our shattered souls

Our spirits are torn though the scars are gone

The pain stays while the sadness lingers on

Until finally when we'll find our home

We'll heal our shattered souls

Our body feels so hollow our souls have lost their glow

The sadness that we swallow keeps us down and low

Like swiming up the stream against the currents flow

We would like to crossover but its not yet time to go

My Karma

[That which is meant for me to go thru]

Its been a while since you and me
Had something that I could not see
I wasn't aware of my intentions
Nor the intention of my emotions
Though I could trust my senses
Unbreakable were those sequences!
Like a king without a kingdom to run
Like a kid who just wants to have fun
I created fantasies of various degrees
With a weightless heart I was carefree

Don't know when it all begun
Until it was all come and done
Like hit by fire from a cannon gun
Like stuck at a point of no return
I could feel my fear hover
Someone lifting me from my cover
But it wasn't just yet over
I had Karma left for time to come
And it was going to bring me down
Cause I was lost and not yet found

What goes around, comes around
My karma flows thru me and it surrounds
Me in loops of ups and downs
When I hurt you, and tore your heart
Apart, as we disagreed to depart,
A Karma was born for me to walk
To feel the force of fear and love
Taking me through what I deserve
And it would finally bring me down
Would not rest until I am found

No one knows where Karma leads
But it always does, as it always did
I was going to feel what you felt,
Deal what you dealt with
Not once but thrice, equally justifies
What I was suppose to see as it would always be
What goes around comes around
My Karma finally brings me down
I was lost but now I am found!
Fullcircle, my Karma comes around

[Dedicated to a soul that was hurt]

Dead Man's Poem

Finally, Death sets me free

From my "eternal like" Agony

And in silent appreciation

Of what surrounds me

I decide to step outside

Feeling like a bona fide

Wishing what I wanna be

Seeing what I wanna see

I had tried and I had lied

All the rules I had defied

But I rest my end to fate

Nothing left to debate

This is the way I go

This is the way I fade

With regrets of the past

I wished for a change in future

Always I begged to differ

Selling my soul was what I preferred

'Cause I have waited

As waiting was my last defense

But Moments of endless hours

Drained all my confidence

Living in the past-tense

Overflowed my sentiments

Slides of memory came rushing thru

Whispering again and again

This is the way it all grew

This is the way it ends too!

Now I am on the other side

Where I don’t need to run or hide

Feels like I'm a new born

All my worldly senses are gone

Looking back I can see myself

Lifeless, soul-less, all alone

That is my past, and it didn’t last

It came from dust and its gone to dust

But I am here to carry on

Where there's no right and no wrong

I listen to this Soulful song

Singing, “This is where I belong

Its worth the wait, only too long!

But this is where I belong”

This Thought

I am a thought
A thought by you
And now I'm out
But in you I grew

I was brought upon by a thought
I entered the world unprovoked
The wind that blows has no clue
How I've walked and how I've scored
It is a thought just like me
Waiting to be finally free
I'm a thought thought by you
Almost, too good to be true

My world is a thought
That thought is in me
A thought within a thought
Wonder how it could be!
Like caught in a thought
That feeds on its own
Surrounds by itself
It’s never alone!

Everything I think
Becomes a thought
No! I don’t need a Shrink!
This is just another Thought!

Thought

As I am leaving for home,
Spiked of emotions under control,
Suddenly I find my heart has a hole
And then it feels so cold!
I wonder if its looking for someone,
Or it is waiting for a call?
Or maybe its searching for my lost soul?

Whatever it is,
I am sinking in its deep complexities
My mind wanders up and down
As I'm flying with the speed of sound,
Home bound!
Hoping my soul will someday be found
When I come around.. . . .

About You and Me

I think of things that we both do
Time and Space that we both share
Quantum thought that passes through
Sets us free and without care
Breath that gives us strength to fly
Makes us go really really high
Over the dark clouds up in the sky
As we fly till we say goodbye

Some thoughts are left unsaid
Some get left behind
We get lost in a chain of thoughts
Wondering what we'd find
And as silence falls around us
We lose our sense of time
Flying in circles of emptiness
We follow a straight line

Hours are passing but I ain't complainin'
I cant stop listenin' to what you'r sayin'
Feels like a sunshine when its rainin'
And I just cant stop listenin' to what you'r sayin'

InevitableNow

Somethings are best left unsaid
For they may cause pain to others
Somethings are best left undone
They are not for us to bother
But let us not be blind
To the force around us
Not seeing the Truth
That constantly surrounds us
Let us take a pledge
Never give-in, never give-up
The Brothehood of Humanity
Against the biggest Cover-ups

At the End of My Day

I was told
That if I was bold enough to hold
On to my faith and grow old
Against the heat and the cold,
That my day would brighten up
Page by page, like written in gold
That I would be able to pay
All my debts away
Without my Soul being sold
At the end of my day
But here I am, old and almost crazy
Feeling weak, down and lazy
Dont feel like pretending
That my days aren't ending
Well now i know for sure
I could have asked for more
But its the end of my day now
End of my stay now
My broken Heart and broken Soul
Still reminds me of my Wakeup Call

Me In The Rain

I said 'its just a little rain'
Maybe, it'll wash down the Sins and the Pain!
So I drenched myself on the wet lane
In the city's dirt mixed with rain
But again, it was just a gesture
After all, gods used it to 'clean the Earth'
And give birth from the dirt
Something worthy to live, to glorify them
And their creativity?
The moments were such
That everything was supposed to go fine,
Still something went wrong
The Players and the Music,
The Singers and the Song,
The blissful harmony was broken
And again the hymns were gone!
That was all a long time ago,
The leaves have fallen into the river's flow.
But tonight its just me in the rain,
All of god's work in vain, again!

Explode Inside Out, Clear and Loud!

There is something inside me,
Something trying to hide from me,
Or trying to hide me!
From myself and the kinds like me?

Something that doesn't wanna come out,
Its trying to turn me inside out!
I cannot scream nor can I shout,
Whats more I never wanna find out!

Oh, these are system flaws?
Like human with claws!
Inside me it wants to explode,
Growing bigger with every thought!

All around there is so much worry,
Illusions and reality mixed in a hurry
Mysteries and Myths create the Divine,
Confused I'm between my heart and my mind

Am I puzzled by the world so fine?
Like the moon and the sunshine,
Like the Earth and the Sky, And the birds that fly,
Like Evolution, Revolution and the Nuclear Fusion,
Like Sound and Vision and the Change of Season.
Everything looks so divine and special
But then they say "Nothing is Real"!

Recurrsive

Once again I've come to this Field
Carryin' this ol' sword and my rusted shield.
Memories of the past
Pass before my eyes,
The ol' and broken promises
An' the bitter lies.
Maybe I'll find ma glory under this Sky
Or may be I'll die!
Maybe I'll fall on my knees
An' this time I'll cease to exist!
Whateve' it is ,
Don't cry fo me please.

Butterfly Kiss

Endless Eternity is what keeps us apart !

You and me were meant to depart

With tattered soul and broken heart

I cant even ask for a fresh start!